** Boring Post Alert ** I’ll be totally honest, I am totally aware that this isn’t that interesting. However, I need you to have some background so that you understand how I got here. Please accept my advanced apologies for the next 500 words of dull.
So, I started a blog around June 2018 while I was mid-way through my Yoga Teacher Training. I love to write, am passionate about talking about mental health and am a huge advocate of Yoga being inclusive (not just for the flexible, svelte or trendy). I also started a separate Instagram account where I could share my passion for Yoga without boring my family and friends. Sounds fairly straight forward doesn’t it? Except it wasn’t.
I found myself literally forcing content, feeling pressured to write every ‘X’ number of days and share something funny, an impressive Yoga pose or just regular enough posts to have a fair chance of beating the algorithm of the ‘gram. The ultimate goal being to build a brand to a point where my Yoga teaching could one day become a full time job and I could step away from the dreary corporate life that is my current job, apparently?
Fast forward a few months and I cracked. I deleted my Yoga Instagram account and the blog in it’s entirety. I felt like it was insincere and not me. I felt like I cared way too much about the numbers and for what? What was I hoping to achieve?! Free gifts that I would have to post as #ad or #gift and become even more insincere?! I have no idea but I do know that deleting that blog and that Instagram account was a relief.
That was on the 28th March 2019. It’s now the 15th May 2019 and I’ve started another blog. So, what’s changed in a few short weeks? I realised the problem wasn’t Instagram, it was me. Insincerity is one of my biggest pet peeves and I wanted to be genuine like all of the gorgeous people that I enjoy following on Instagram. I like Instagram, the pressure came from me and my warped expectations about what I wanted to achieve by starting a blog about my Yoga practice. It was just all so wrong!
Another teeny tiny change … I’m nearly 18 weeks pregnant as I type this!
I found Instagram to be such a useful source of reassurance during those tough, and frankly, insanely anxious first 12 weeks when nobody else knew that I was pregnant and I was feeling so rubbish. It’s because of social media that we are now starting to talk so openly about mental health, baby loss, postpartum psychosis, post natal depression, pre natal depression, miscarriage, infertility, mum bosses, dad-preneurs single parents, poor parents, rich parents and all of the things! I love social media and the power that it has when it’s helpful.
I also realised that you can do all the Yoga, all the meditation and all the ‘journalling’ you want but you have to want to be doing those things to be working on yourself. THIS is my ‘journalling’, my Yoga practice is my Yoga practice and my meditation is my time at the gym. That’s what works for me.
So this blog is for me. My Instagram account is now public, I don’t focus on the content but I do share what I fancy sharing, I follow only those that make me feel good, inspired or uplifted and I don’t know what this blog is going to be about or how long I will keep writing it but it’s going to be genuine and sincere and very much all about me.
Stick around or don’t, I won’t judge either way but if you’ve got this far, Thanks for reading 😉